A quarter of the way through my Level 4 Counselling Diploma and four months into Art Psychotherapy (it is a course requirement to be supported by therapy or counselling during training) – I guess I am bound to be feeling rather fragmented through self-examination. I have to be honest, I’m not loving it – but I am deep ‘in it’ and rapidly learning about myself. This is really hard.
Learning about different psychological methods is one thing – I’ve learnt something about Psychosynthesis, Transactional Analysis, Ecopsychology – always Person Centred (this is the core theoretical framework for the course) and of course I’m experiencing Art Therapy – but the group process and my personal therapy feels endless and deeply challenging. Alterations are happening on a sub-conscious level that I only realise when my conscious actions relating to areas I am working on such as abandonment anxiety feel much easier (yay!)
When I’m drawing directly from the sub-conscious, my art takes on a very different quality (see below) which I find fascinating. The images -as you can see – are simply executed, but I feel that despite their simplicity they are strongly emotional. What do you think?
I question everything- why am I even training in counselling? Is it simply a knee-jerk response to my early experiences? I feel fragmented, everything is being taken apart, examined, then being discarded or reinserted. I believe this is a quality of my Psychotherapy. The Person Centred Counselling I experienced for three years transmuted an effect of self actualisation – this feels far more empowering. I’m wondering reader – what are your experiences – do you agree with my hypothesis?